I had my contract for training signed yesterday afternoon. It wasn't that easy before I signed it. I did a lot of talking and showing off my so called skills hahaha.. I was so trying hard believe me but it was worth it din naman.

The Program or so they call as the training will start on Monday, 5 days a week and will start 7:00AM - 2:00PM. Yeah, you read it right, 7:00AM. Me? -- 7 in the morning? come on.. hehehe. I'll bet on my grandmother's grave if Ms. Hibernator, at your service, can make it on time.

I'll be home tomorrow, maybe i'll go home for the rest of my weekends while I'm here. Because if I can get through this training, going home is no longer that easy. I would really miss my family but hey.. there's got to be more than this. I'm going to cry na. :( huhuhu..

I was chatting with a long time friend one night after a long time ago. It was not like unexpected because I know it'll happen (just got the feeling). *grinning* I wasn't edgy while talking to him, just plain smiling because we talk after a while. We chatted about the usual things we used to when we were still an item. (hahaha.. an item huh) I realized we still talk the same subject since what.. 4 years and a half, I guess.

We're like trying to make things allright between us but too bad it didn't work right but still we had this on-and-off communication. We were like two people kept on wandering, not really knowing where to go that time. Parang nag uusap nang mga walang kwentang bagay, parang nagsasayang lang ng load at oras over the phone but we both know we're working things out.

He wanted a commitment but I was not sure myself if I could handle that. But I told him I seriously wanted him to stay. Just be with me. Not literally live with me or in the same country but just bare with what I want as of that moment. I don't care if he's dating someone else behind my back or having fun with bitches and assholes but just let me know you're still around. Crazy but I was hoping that way that we're going to be okay din.

Well, it never happened.

Of what I found out last year, I didn't cry (I wanted to though to make it more dramatic hehehe) -- but I couldn't smile either.

What happened back there, anyway? I didn't ask you why because somehow I don't want to hear it. Well, I couldn't obliged you to explain either because we weren't an item when you asked me to wait for you (which I really did). Dinaan ko na nga lang sa joke yung last text message mo sa'kin eh -- 'did you even care when you said happy new year?' 'Tang ina yun pala feeling ko engage kana nun. Pinaantay mo pa'ko. Hehehe..

Well, hey it's all good. I didn't hate you for what happened and I didn't feel any regrets because I was not close to commitment. I felt no sadness when you got married because finally I had the right reason to let you go. :)

Whatever you do and whoever you're with, you'll always be part of my past. *wink* And I will always see you as my friend who laughs like no other. *wide grin*

As what I always tell you and you know who you are -- you be good. ;)

I went home last Wednesday for my brother's birthday and just got back yesterday night. Mama wanted me to leave home by next week but I refused. I was supposed to go back in my apartment Thursday but Papa asked me to stay until Monday. Hey, it was Father's Day last Sunday. So I stayed for that day. We had lunch together -- my parents and I.

Anyway, as usual, I did nothing but lived like a princess at home. There were nothing much to do. The two elder kids are in school already, the other two small kids were busy trying to kill each other everyday, and the new baby has nothing much to say yet so I ended up with me alone with our television. My parents are busy doing something else so we only get to talk at night.

It wasn't that boring there actually and it's not boring being in my own place as well. You know, when sometimes you wanted to do something but you're not sure what it is -- and worst thing, in my case, is that when I have no idea what else to do than sit and deal with the feeling until it's gone. Geez man, it's completely suicidal.

And also like when I'm doing the same thing like what I have been doing for the past few days and having the notion of doing it again the next few days. WOW.. somebody save me.

My brother sent me a text message to go to the hospital because my sister-in-law will be delivering any minute then. I came there around 6 in the evening and I thought she really was ready to get it all out but she can't feel any pain or sign that the baby was ready to come out and the baby was not moving. Then the tension started. My brother can't sit for a while because he was so tensed and worried about her wife and the baby.

So I was like there, supporting and all that. I was also taking care their baggage in times that my brother was needed to process something from the doctor's prescription.

I stayed awake all night. Though I was so eager to go home because I can't stand being in a hospital with no proper place to lie down plus you get to see bloody people, I stayed because I had no choice. Hihihi..

Anyway, ang ginawa ko nalang habang inaantay ko ang sunrise ay magbody count ng mga patay. The waiting area of OB department is located at the back beside the gate where dead people pass going to the morgue. Shit man, it was horrible, terrible, unbelievable at kung anu pang '-ble' na experience yun. I don't know if I would feel privileged kasi hindi lahat nakakakita ng patay ng ganun karami anu. Mga 7 lang naman ang dumaan sa harapan kong patay. Hindi lang naman sya ganun katipid. Lord, may all those souls are with you now.

Morninng na, dilat na dilat parin ako pero feeling ko hindi na 'ko tatagal nang isang oras pagnag-stay pa 'ko until lunch.

By 8 that morning, I stood out and took a walk. For 16 hours (more or less) I was just there sitting on the hardest chair ever I've used -- waiting for the baby to come out. Quarter to 9, finally God gave me the chance to live more days because I really felt like I'm going to collapsed and die in seconds if I go back to that horrible waiting area and sit for more hours. My sister-in-law's mother came to the rescue. Sa walay pagduha duha, nilupad intawn dayon ko.

I had 4 hours of sleep. My stomach woke me up actually. I ate nothing from last night though I had dinner but that was an early dinner. I had my lunch right after I took a bath.

Then a surprise call came in around 3 in the afternoon. It was my employer. :) I had my 5-minute interview over the phone and I sort of passed because they asked me to come to their office the next day for the exam.

I still don't have my resume. I'm screwed. Hahaha.. My exam schedule was 1:30 in the afternoon and by 10 in the morning I still don't have my resume. I don't have any more money that day actually so I have to withdraw an amount sent by my sister. You know what, ang tense nung time na yun kasi when I arrived at MLhuiller (where my sister sent the money), it was offline. Time check, it's 12:20pm. I was like going to blow. Hell, it's my first exam and have to make it. I was really worried because they said, most probably the system will be back around 1:30 and I'm dead by then. As in talagang kukulangin ang pera ko pag hindi ko nakuha yung money from there. Plus, I was not fit with my business attire and take note -- no printed resume in my hand yet. Well then , I was tested with my patience. Around 12:40 I guess, their system came back to life. Parang may naghahabol sakin nung time na yun because I was half walking half running. I went to GS Citimall to buy few coupon bonds and a folder. Then went straight to an internet cafe to print my resume. Time check, 1:00pm. I came back to my apartment to change oufit then went straight to my employer's office. When I came in, I have 5 minutes before call time. Damn, that was close.

Lesson learned: Get off student's comfort zone from now on. Procrastination, start hating it.

My exam's result? I passed. *wide grin*

My final interview was supposed to be in June 10 at 10:30AM.

I went to Greenwich, Victoria Plaza because I forgot or the cashier forgot my change there the other day. Nag-take-out ako ng meal para dalhin ko sa hospital. I forgot because the cashier told me to give it to me along with the food. I was texting while waiting for it for like 10 minutes. My food was delivered and I left. That night, before I went back to my apartment, I dropped by at some 24 hour shop to buy something. Then there.. I remembered my forgotten change.

Good thing they gave it back to me though I don't have the reciept. Pare malaki laki rin yung change ko, hindi pa 'ko nagpupulot ng pera ngayon. Tsaka na..

Anyway, I visited the hospital again because my mother and my first niece was there. After the hospital visit, we went to GMall to grab some food. Then I went back to my apartment.

I was informed by my employer this day that my final interview will be moved on to June 09, same time. Oh, gosh that's a day to go..

I went to SM to buy some stuff then to GS Citimall. I bought a new outfit by the way. Para at least kung hindi man ako makapasa sa final interview, naka-outfit ako. hahaha..

I tried to sleep around 11 but hardly can do. I think I finally did around 2 in the morning and set my phone alarm by 8:30 in the morning.

I dragged myself out of bed and luckily I came in to my employer's office few minutes before my call.

The final interview was brief. It took 30-45 minutes I guess. The questions were straight and my answers were luckily straight and more like -- right. Hahaha..

At the end of the interview, the interviewer endorsed me to a training level. And that was it. My smile that time was the truest from the moment I stepped in to that room.

You know what was the question that took me a while to gather my answer? I was asked about my weaknesses. Hindi ko napaghandaan yun. At nagfefeeling feelingan daw ako na walang weakness kung kaya wala akong nasagot kaagad. Hahaha..

Whatever.

So what will I do now is to wait for their call to start on the training. They said, our trainer will be from Cebu and will be coming at the end of the month. Great. Hibernate mode napod ni. Shemper, hawd ko ana.

If the training will cooperate with me, then I'm off this city. :)

Step 2 was my resume writing. I've done it for like weeks -- draft, finalize, proof read, edit, finalize, recheck, finalize again.. Damn shit. I tell you, it's not that easy.

Anyway, around 5 this afternoon, nagkaroon na 'ko ng malay. Joy..? Is dat chu? Opo, nangaplay napo ako. Shacks, eto na'to.

I fill out online applications from BPO companies based in Cebu. B'yaan na lagi nku akong yutang natawhan ani kung madayon man. Panawagan, kung kinsa man tong gusto muuban, uban lang -- pagdala lang pamasahe pod ha..

I also applied in Starcruises. It's an Asian cruise line for those who do not know. My sister's friend asked her to come back but Ate's not in the mood to work anymore so she's encouraging me now instead. Well, we'll see. Para napod sa mga gustong mouban, sige GOW para bongga ang show.

Another set of employer for tomorrow. Haay.. Is this really how clean money supposed to have?

And oh, wondering what was my Step 1? Katong bakasyon diay.. Wala pa gani ko kalangoy. Init man gud, hihihi.. Leizl? ang beach ayaw kalimti dai. Manglangoy pa ta..