We do have this program for newbies, it's called E.S.P.N. It's not the tv channel, it's an acronym (kaya nga may dot eh) Every week, we have to passed some kind of ratingssssssss. As in marami po and dapat balance sya and a newbie is supposed to get at least passing rate of 3 (a total of all rates) for last week. Awa ng Diyos pare naka-4 ako, 'kalain mo yun.. For this week, I don't have any idea if I'll pass. ( .. will tell ya ;) ) If we'll pass three consecutive weeks, we'll graduate from being a newbie or something. If we don't, we're given some length of time to cope and pass. If wala pajud, bakwit nalang daw (joke) we'll be recieving an award -- verbal warning, written warning or kung anumang warning. Pagnagka-warning ka pare, ibang usapan na yun.
Anyway, I'm trying to learn, pass everything I need to pass as an agent then ask permission to apply for whatever other than an agent. So kunyari may goal ako dapat. You need to have a good performance record before you can change whatever tasks you have, as they say. So that's why I'm trying my best, obviously it doesn't mean that I'm liking it.
I moved in to a new room last night. It's quite nicer than the first one but there are things that I still don't like. But have to get used to it
nalang muna.
It's been a month since I moved in here in Cebu but I'm still trying to adapt to everything --
sa work,
sa place,
sa mga tao,
sa cost of living (
medyo kataasan comapred to Davao),
sa mga jeepney routes (until now,
isang route lang ang alam ko -- ang papuntang workplace lang),
pati narin sa mga taxi drivers (
na pag tinanong mo in bisaya, sasagutin ka sa tagalog -- kaya mo yun..?)
, and
sasali ko na rin mga snatchers na na-amazed ako kahit papano dahil angat sila compared to ours sa Davao -- mas sosyal pare. Anyway, I'll be working again later tonight.
Haaaay..
I asked my supervisor last Wednesday if I could go to the clinic after first few hours of my shift. I was not really feeling well. The resident nurse gave me 3 different tablets and an hour of rest. I decided to just take my rest at the lobby since it's nearer than the sleeping room. I was there together with the guards lying on the couch. All of us were so sleepy but I guess I was not just sleepy then. I was sleepy, sad, and stressed. :(
When I was about to go back taking calls again, I took some time to ponder what's really wrong because normally if I don't feel well, I just grab something and make myself busy. I sometimes read or write if I'm sad or magne-nailpolish nalang. And then I cried. I did. Walang pasabi, talagang tumulo luha ko. I went to the rest room instead and tried to divert my thoughts -- but I wasn't successful because one of my batchmates was there and bigla nya 'kong tinanong "Hi, Joy. How are you?" -- Oh diba.. tumulo na naman luha ko. She tried to comfort and empathize, appreciate that Kai. Thank you. :)
Few hours after, I was back on the floor, putting a smile on my face every time I say "Thank you for calling..", and pretending it's just another day of my work and is about to end. Anumang gawin ko, there's still tommorow, next week, and even 6 more months. Damn.
